LOVE::HATE

"when my story’s told, how will they tell it? /
will they say I was a giver or will they say I was selfish /
will they say I was a sinner or pretend I was a saint"

How will they label me? Usually I paint my thoughts in controversial verbiage, but the message is intended for the simple minded. I've been challenged, tested, mislead and lied to, and still I rise. I've shared the little I have, not expecting anything in return, yet they continue to consume and diminish me, without a care...

"will I go down as a winner, whats the picture they gon paint /
wouldn’t say that I’m a quitter thats one thing I know I aint /
will they tarnish, will they taint? /
glorify me, overthink, say they know me, say I’m great /
say I’m phoney, I was fake /
say the things about me they never told me to my face /
I was loved I was hated /
just a n-gga with a dream" - J.Cole

LOST::PROVISIONAL DEVOTION

"I lack the necessary tools to help me get right/ So take your place as the temporary savior" - Woman Tonight - Felt

I maneuver thru secular devotion and avoid metaphysical divinity... Grand illusions created by flesh, my mind in disarray... falsely stating "it'll be ok." And then I ponder some more, create personas, to acclimate "self" and explore my environment to induce blind trust... "You see I loved hard once, but the love wasn’t returned... Though my eyes saw the deception, My heart wouldn’t let me learn"

UNBALANCED::LOST IN TRANSLATION

-I had a convo with my soul I asked it, "When will this shit change?"

My manifesto lost in translation, tainted by false loves, resurrected by her inimitable inducement / Only to create moments of disparity with no novelties/ but I rise beyond the aphrodisia and announce peace to my soul/ balance restored thru self preservation.....

RANDOM::ISH

So... Thoughts and Ish always on my mind... I think, ponder, n wonder... Only to always come to another question, or suggestion but never the answer... I love, care, n admire... but always in dire need of something more, something abstractly desirable... thats all I "ASK OF YOU".... ??? Eh.. maybe